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there’s this man whose eyes bleed this beautiful, sad blue. he hides it though, behind dark crops of hair and thick eyelashes. sometimes i find myself wanting to count the folds and wrinkles that hide his cheekbones and teach him how to smile. there’s times i pass him and he’ll be pressing a cup of coffee gently to his lips and it makes me happy. i don’t know why but i think it shows me he’s alive. he’s heart’s beating and he’s feeling something, anything.
he writes postcards to himself from his capital city to make sure he never forgets where he is. he posts them to himself and wonders why he does it. he can’t really remember, but he buys new postcards every wednesday on his way home from work. he tells himself who he is and who he wants to be tomorrow. he’s never who he wants to be, though. he’s always who he wishes he wasn’t.
on friday nights i walk my dog past the pier. sometimes i’ll walk down to the end, watching the sunset in the skyline. he’s there every night. he sits with his legs hanging off the very end and i find myself wanting to not get too close. i’m not scared, but he looks peaceful and i’m afraid i’ll disturb him. maybe he’s imagining he’s got the world beyond him. maybe he’s imaging that there’s nothing in the world but a sunset-orange sea dotted with the silhouettes of sailing boats. maybe that’s when he’s happy. when he’s alone, and somewhere else.
sometimes i think that maybe his sad eyes are only the surface of it. i think maybe he’s suffering. it was thursday night and maybe nine-thirty. it was dark outside but the train was lit and the windows were like holes. just dark abysses. he was staring out them anyway. i thought that he might have been daydreaming, but then i saw tears rolling down his wrinkled face. his hands were shaking in his lap and sitting across from him i felt so sorry for him. something about seeing an old man cry i think cut deep. he turned to me and stuttered that he’d seen me before.
‘i’ve seen you before too’
‘you shouldn’t have’
‘why not?’
‘because you don’t deserve to have. i’m nothing’
‘no you’re not’
‘forget me’
‘forget i exist’
‘don’t ever forget you exist, though’
the train stopped and i got off. the moon bled a sad, beautiful blue and i fell asleep trying to forget. i couldn’t though, i couldn’t ever. i never saw him again, but i hope he’s in a world where all he can see is sunset orange sea and all he can taste is warm coffee pressed to his cracked lips. i hope he doesn’t have to daydream and that his electric blue eyes aren’t sad anymore. i hope he’s learnt to smile.
this one's for chloe :iconocd-arsonist:
because she keeps me sane without knowing it.


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I found this very moving, from the first words until the last. The imagery is wonderful, 'I find myself wanting to count the folds and wrinkles that hide his cheekbones and teach him how to smile ' that particular line just made me have goosebumps, such fantastic words spun together. The transition from description to speech is smooth and executed well. 'Don't ever forget you exist, though.' that line just rounds the whole description off nicely. And your finally reflection of, I hope he's learnt to smile ties it all back together. You have an amazing writing style, thank you for sharing.
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Sammur-amat Nov 11, 2012   General Artist
Congratulations on the truly deserved DLD, lovely :huggle:
Thank you so much!
Sammur-amat Nov 17, 2012   General Artist
You're most welcome<3
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Oh my gosh, thank you so much! Means the world and a half :heart:
wakiagaru Nov 3, 2009
This is the kind of piece that makes me want to hug the world and never let go~
Thank you so much for posting a wonderful piece like this. It's absolutely beautiful. :heart:
naw. thank you so much :heart:
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