So, you could say it's been a while hey?
I wanted to just take a moment to explain my very long absence and what's been going on - because when I logged back on after over a year, the amount of love this community still gives me is something incredible. To know that I wrote some of the most popular literature on here at the ages of 16 and 17 is amazing, and it has inspired me to keep writing. Or at least try to keep writing.
Well, after I broke up with James, my life just got better. There really isn't many other ways to put it - on and off for a couple of months we were talking, fucking etc - but after that it was just happy. I really was just happy. It's an amazing feeling to look back at the last year and be able to say while yes there were difficult moments, it's been the happiest and most fulfilling year of my life. I was free and less stressed and I went through a phase of self realisation for a few months where I took up meditation and yoga, began eating better and sort of just fixed my life up a bit.
I finished year 12 with an amazing score and I could practically do anything I wanted - I chose to not study. I'm working full time and learning a lot about business and everything that goes along with that, and it is very demanding. I am also with a new boyfriend, who I've been with for just under a year now, and we're living together in a beautiful house with two beautiful cats and our friend. Lots of cooking and cleaning, but it's rewarding and it makes me feel like an adult despite choosing not to study.
I'm doing freelance writing on the side - content writing, copywriting, academic writing etc. to keep this passion alive inside of me. I've never really stopped writing, but now I get paid to do it and it's amazing.
The reason I haven't really been active here though, I would say, is because DeviantArt and poetry as a whole was always a cathartic thing for me. It was a release and the community here was such a huge support system that helped me through some of the hardest times in my life. It's sad to say that I have nothing to write about anymore - but it's true, and it's also a very happy time for me because all I ever wrote about was my sadness and my pain and my loneliness. I am now supported, happy, comfortable and have outlets other than self hatred and wallowing in my misery. I am taken care of and I appreciate everything the people around me do to help me.
I just wanted to say a huge, huge thank you to this community while I have an opportunity. The people on here, even in my absence, have always been the most loving, kind, accepting and beautiful community and I am so proud to say I was once a part of it. It took me this absence to realise how much of a release DA was for me, and thank you for being the net that always caught me when I tried to fall.
I'd love to hear what you guys are up to, what you've been doing and what's been going on.