Shop Mobile More Submit  Join Login
About Deviant Rachel?Female/Australia Group :iconlegitlit: LegitLit
Recent Activity
Deviant for 7 Years
Needs Core Membership
Statistics 487 Deviations 8,145 Comments 52,581 Pageviews



i could see bones through bruised skin
you opened your eyes, just a little, once
and i think you tried to smile

you breathed my name and it was as if the whole world had stopped for us to acknowledge each other's pain
what is it to silently apologize for your father's absence?


there's a quiet i've always hated in hospitals.

there will be so much silence soon, for you
i think some laughter would have at least reminded you
that you were still alive

you're sitting on your porch, alone
there's a heat seeping into your bones
and you call me to tell me that she's gone
we don't say much else

i'm attending your mother's funeral without you
and i'm not sure if i'm crying for her
or for you
i am still waiting
to learn what it feels like
to love without yearning

and that's the thing about love -
you can never know what it's meant to feel like

because i am comfortable
and i am happy

but i have stopped staring at the sky and wondering
because when i do,
i am still laying beside you

if you have ever been to this place
can you please tell me what you have found

i am too afraid
to reopen this wound
i don't know what colour my blood is anymore
and i am afraid that i will still be bleeding for you

my fingers are still wandering your skin
and i am still discovering
what is is like to love

and here,
i am empty because i have a desire
to be sad again

i am exploring the places of myself
in which i laid these things to rest
and there is a satisfaction
in knowing they are still well and truly

it has been seven years now
and i am not sure if i will ever
truly fill your space
or if i am even meant to

it has been seven years now
and i don't know what it means
that i have picked my wedding song
but every time i write
'you' is always still you

it has been seven years now and
i am still waiting
to figure out what that means



rachel-rhapsody's Profile Picture

this is everything that my temper hides.

whoever keeps giving me premium memberships is the love of my life.

AdCast - Ads from the Community



Add a Comment:
Rushy Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2016
:party: Happy Birthday! :cake:
MKCVXIII Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2015
I like what you have done so far, it seems that you have put a lot of work on it, your poems are so amazing! can't wait to read more, good job!
brokengod--veins Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Happy Birthday :>
Rushy Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2015
Party Happy Birthday! Have your cake and eat it too
DenBen Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
It's been a very long time! I hope you remember me? If not I remember you as one of my biggest inspirations (aside from my own life of course) :D
Hope to talk again soon!
(2 Replies)
Add a Comment: